The Battle Over Love
By Linda C Dipman
The war between brother and sister began as the chess board was placed on the center of the
table. Tension filled the air with every move. Mom worriedly looked at our faces hoping and praying
that we would finish our game in peace and not in another fight.
Any game my brother and I played together was certain to lead to a continued standoff. A complex
theatrical challenge that could put either of us over the edge throwing the game into the air and
snorting as if we were two bulls in an arena daring the other to win the next game.
The Chess game has always been a great way to illustrate the battle that each of us face. A
complex arrangement of opposing forces positioned to challenge the players to prove who is the best
and who is the biggest loser.
Unfortunately, unlike chess, the world game is not so plain to see. It has been disguised to catch a
person by surprise. It throws the way we think, off balance just enough to teach us a revelation that
we would not have understood without the challenge.
Because our world game is so unexpected it can keep us on the edge of our seats wondering
exactly what else can go wrong. I suppose that is the reason why my being gay caused such a stir in
my very religious family.
You see I grew up loving God and being taught all the religious values a student of Christ could
understand. I was taught to love and to be compassionate to all people.
I was faithful and committed and I loved to serve God from camp to choir to testifying before people
how good God was. But then a game formed and pulled me into a valley that required more than
what I was taught.
A challenge to love a person in a way that suddenly positioned me against the very church I loved.
A game of life that stirred war between what kind of love was right and what kind of love was sin.
I was not prepared for the battle that began to stir. I was thirty-one years old and up until this time I
had lived a perfect life. I married as a virgin, had three children and attended church faithfully.
The spirit within me changed making me feel things I had never felt before. My eyes saw a face
and the heart of another woman and I wanted her more than the blissfully peaceful life I had once
been a part.
I didn't know that when I followed my feelings of love, that I would open a door to a war that would
turn my entire family away from me. I had no idea how everyone could change from praising my
every move to wanting me to suffer for ever thinking I should give into this kind of love.
I had been raised that God was love, but now according to everyone I ever knew, the love I was
experiencing supposedly was wrong. I didn't understand because this love was better than anything I
had ever felt before.
A fight of epic proportions raged around me. People who had loved and knew me since I was a
child looked at me and despised me. Church people who were to show compassion and care, stalked
my every move to prove to the court system that I was gay and thus unfit to be a mother to my
My ex-husband in a fury of emotions slammed a car door into my leg over and over again while our
pastor and a deacon watched him vent his rage. I couldn't believe what was happening to me. Just a
few months before they had loved me and sought my help in educating others in the love of Jesus
I thought that love equals God and hate is Satan. Here I was loving for the first time and people
who were to be the example of God's love could do anything they wanted to me and not feel ashamed.
I wasn't prepared for the fight I would face or the challenge I had to just stay alive! The court
stripped me of my children. In protest I ran with my kids and was thrust into jail.
God came to me in a real way by sending me an Angel from heaven to encourage me to not give
up. He said, "My Ways Are Not Human Ways Trust In Me, God Has Spoken!" He sent me messages
of encouragement telling me that it was man and Satan that was hurting me, not God. "For God Is
John 15:18-20, "If the world hates you, just remember that it has hated me first. If you belonged to
the world, then the world would love you as its own. But I chose you from this world, and you do not
belong to it; that is why the world hates you. Remember what I told you; 'No salve is greater than his
master.' If they persecuted me, they will persecute you too; if they obeyed my teaching, they will obey
This kind of war was not like any chess game I had ever experienced. It was an unseen war
between spiritual forces of good versus evil. It was a war that gives revelation to some people and
brings the worse out of others.
Because of the harshness of my reality God educated me in understanding the differences
between love and hate. God opened my mind up to the concept of seeing our world as a game. A
game pitting people against each other so they would come to a truth that would lead them to choose
to do right.
God showed me scripture verse after verse proving to me that our world is under the rule of Satan.
Satan was given control in order to test men through the evil experiences found in this world.
However, not all tests result in a person doing right. Many tests reveal the hearts of men who
choose evil. When a person chooses evil, darkness comes into their lives and prevents them from
understanding the truth.
It is a tool used by Satan to lead people into using the world for what they can get from it. That is
the reason that people during the time of Lot perverted themselves in sexual ritual.
It was like a sex party. Crowds of people would take part in the excitement of this pagan ritual.
Taking a sacrifice of a human life to use for this ritual had two fold benefits. One, they appeased the
requirements of the temple god and second, they received the pleasure of the sexual act.
The men of Sodom went to Lots home in order to use the angels in their perverted rituals of fertility.
These two men were beautiful beings and offering them in this ritual was considered to bring great
blessings upon their community.
Worshiping and practicing rituals to gods that are not gods is leading people away from God. It
allows Satan to win the game of life for evil and prevents people from understanding the difference
between good and bad.
Our world must have clear differences! What happened to Sodom and Gomorrah had nothing to do
with homosexuality. It have everything to do with Satan leading people down paths that would keep
them from understanding. Evil paths of sin that lead to godlessness!
Sin equals darkness. Sin makes people hate. Sin prevents people from knowing God. If sin is
allowed to grow it can destroy good peoples lives and prevent God's children from winning their game
God had no choice but to take action against theses cities in order to destroy the blindness from
reaching out and capturing more and more towns. God sent fire from heaven to destroy this evil
Exodus 20:3-6, "Worship no god but me.
Do not take for yourselves images of anything in heaven or on earth or in the water under the
earth. Do not bow down to any idol or worship it, because I am the Lord your God and I tolerate no
rivals. I bring punishment on those who hate me and on their descendants down to the third and
fourth generation. But I show my love to thousands of generations of those who love me and obey
Sodom and Gomorrah were destroy as a result of godlessness. It had nothing to do with God not
The Chess game took on a form of war that led to a truth. A truth that was disguised so that the
evil found in the hearts of men would be revealed.
Good men recognize love and do what is right, but if you are not careful a good man can be used
as an instrument of hate.