It Just Isn’t Fair that I’m Sick Part Three & Part Four

I Want to Know My Future

I repent   Part Three

Her friends were astonished at the severity of her disease.  In the past they had gone on outings of shopping trips to adventures that took them to beautiful Rocky Mountain walking trails and parks.  They were her confidants in relationships and work.  Now everything was different, it just wasn’t fair to see their friend so frail and weak.  In time each one went their separate way.  They no longer could find anything in common with her.

Now not only was she suffering from the disease of congestive heart failure, but she felt abandoned by her friends.  Even her family was moving on with their lives and calling her less and less frequently.  It just wasn’t fair!  She felt all alone, except she felt the Spirit of God beckoning her not to give up, but to live with the life that she was given.  In her aloneness she read her Bible and prayed.  She asked Jesus to help her through each day.

John 15: 5-7: “‘I am the vine, and you are the branches.  Whoever remains in me, and I in him, will bear much fruit; for you can do nothing without me.  Whoever does not remain in me is thrown out like a branch and dries up; such branches are gathered up and thrown into the fire, where they are burned.  If you remain in me and my words remain in you, then you will ask for anything you wish, and you shall have it.’”

Dear Jesus, Please forgive me for not trusting you with my life. I am your servant.  Please help me to overcome the burden of my condition. Help me to believe in you even when it’s hard.  I give you my life.

Confronting My Condition   Part Four

In agony she refused to give up and surrender to her heart condition.  She prayed for God to heal her; but God refused.  Determined, she walked forward into every doctor appointment with her head held high.  She felt a spiritual change come over her and a strength she had never experienced before. Her attitude of ‘why me’ changed to how can a serve Jesus? In her weakness she made a choice to be cheerful and encouraging to the patients who sat with her in the waiting room.  She would not give up and die and allow Satan to rob her of her hope that Jesus had a plan for her life that went far beyond the sickness she had to bare.

She didn’t have the strength to teach Sunday school anymore, but she could pray for the kids she once taught.  She didn’t have the breath to sing in the choir, but she could cheer them on every Sunday when they sang.  She may not be the same person she had been before with her family, but she could encourage them in their lives.  Her changed attitude created a life of purpose she had not known existed in her former life.

Philippians 4:6-8:  “Don’t worry about anything, but in all your prayers ask God for what you need, always asking him with a thankful heart.  And God’s peace, which is far beyond human understanding, will keep your hearts and minds safe in union with Christ Jesus.

In conclusion, my brothers, fill your minds with those things that are good and that deserve praise:  things that are true, noble, right, pure, lovely, and honorable.”

Dear Jesus, I Don’t understand why this is happening to me, but I give you my life.  Help me to be a witness for you.  Let my life reflect the power of God and what He can do even when your body is weak.









About Linda Dipman

I am the author of "I Want to Know My Future" and "The Game of Life It's Almost Over". I wrote these books after being persecuted by my church, family and friends. Why do bad things happen to good people? The bad things we go through in life teach us wisdom we would have never learned without going through the test. I care about people and I write for God.Linda C Dipman author of I WANT TO KNOW MY FUTURE presents I WANT TO KNOW MY FUTURE It will put you on the edge of your seat as you read each vivid detail. You will feel terror and experience love like nothing you have ever read before. Find out what happens when God fights for you! 5.0 out of 5 stars a powerful and very much recommended read. Midwest Book Review: I Want to Know My Future With nothing left, not even family, God may be the only thing left. "I Want to Know My Future" is a Christian memoir from Linda Dipman who ponders her rough journey when she was thrown in jail and forgotten by her church and family. When all seemed lost she relates how God was still there for her and she hopes her story will help other readers remember this important fact. "I Want to Know My Future" is a powerful and very much recommended read. The Christian Author Radio Show
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