A Calling I Didn’t Understand
Ten days later she was released from the hospital free from the virus, but chained to a terminal disease of the heart. Her heart was irreversibly damaged. She would be under continued care by a doctor taking five medications twice a day to keep her from instantly dying from a heart attack. Now she would have to monitor everywhere she went to protect herself from possibly being infected from a minor cold to a contagious flu that would rob her of her life.
A mind game began to play like a recording in her head making her question God as to why she was given such a hard burden to bare. She seldom was sick before. She had done everything that was recommended to lead a healthy lifestyle. She ate the right foods and went to regular check-ups. Everything she did to live the right kind of life was thrown away as if burned up in a fire of remembrance of what her life had once been. Now she was chained to continued doctor visits and medication that had side effects that made her dizzy and nauseated and deprived her of her strength. “It just isn’t fair that I’m sick!”
James 1:12: “Happy is the person who remains faithful under trials, because when he succeeds in passing such a test, he will receive as his reward the life which God has promised to those who love him.”
Dear God, I never expected my life to turn out like this. Please help me to do this even though I feel like it isn’t fair. I am your child. Save me Jesus!