I Am So Afraid
By Linda C Dipman

    My greatest fear is that my life will be unfulfilled.  My daughters biggest fear is that an evil person might take or
hurt one of her three young children.  Recently, I met a woman whose biggest fear is cancer.  My elderly neighbors
biggest fear is dieing alone.  What is your biggest fear?  Does fear seem to control you?

    Have you ever felt fear because you knew that the problem you were facing took away all of your control?  A
fear that drove you to your knees begging God to protect you from the dread of pain.  A fear that consumed your
every wakening thought and made you so afraid that you couldn't eat.  All you could do was cry and wonder why is
this happening to me?

    Many people in life today feel fear when they are met with the reality of a life threatening disease, natural
disaster, or maybe even with the uncertainty of a relationship where you were in love, but the other person was in
it for the wrong reasons.  Everyone has experienced these feelings of total helplessness, life situations that make
you feel that you are not in control of the outcome that is affecting your life.

    Today we live where the News on television is constantly blaring images of horrible things happening all over
the world.  Forcing us, during commercial breaks, to see the evil that people perpetrate on each other through
wars, murders and civil disputes.  Whether we like it or not we will be witnesses to these evil crimes through the
media we invite into our homes everyday.

    We see the news of soaring gas prices in our newspapers and on our computers.  We see constant headlines
outlining the economic crunches combined with job loss and telling us that our world has so many problems that
almost none of them can be solved.  The constant bombardment of information can take the heart of a strong man
and make him afraid.

    How could you not be afraid when disasters, diseases, and famines are constantly reminding us of how
uncertain life can be?  If this is not enough, then we are reminded through made up television programs if God
loves people then why is there so many bad things happening to them in the first place.  So now our faith has been
undermined and we feel deserted in an evil world with no hope at all.

    Recently I was contacted by a woman who was in the throws of uncontrollable fear.  She was afraid that either
she or a member of her immediate family was going to be consumed by cancer.  I asked why she felt this way and
she began to tell me all about the people she knew who had either died or survived cancer.  She was so much in a
state of fear that she stated that she just didn't know how she could believe in God when there seemed to be an
epidemic of cancer spreading everywhere.

    Understanding the every day dilemmas found in the world and the anxiety brought on by her extreme emotions,
I explained to her why she was so afraid.  Many people do not understand that we live in a world that demands that
we either believe in God or we will fall prey to the evil workings of Satan.  We live in a learning world.  A world
where we must learn the difference between right and wrong.

    Gaining wisdom makes us look directly into the face of evil and determine for ourselves why it is bad.  The only
way we can do this is by being presented with opposites.  These opposites are like the difference between peace
and war, good health and disease, love and hate, and of course truth and deception.  Every one of these make us
see why our world is evil.

    When Adam and Eve sinned they released Satan into the world.  From that moment Satan became god over
man.  This is the reason why Cain killed Abel, why a flood destroyed the earth except for Noah, why God chose
Israel to suffer as slaves in order to teach people how to defend themselves from the devil.  

    Satan has the power to enter our minds and tempt us to sin.  Sin is doing anything that leads us away from the
perfect plan of God.  Sin is evil because it demands that we don't care about anyone except ourselves.  God is
opposite from sin.  God is love and He helps people.  Jesus came to be the Savior of the world.  He rescues
people from Satan when we place our trust in Him.

    If we don't place our faith in Jesus Christ as our Savior then we are immediately put in danger of totally being
destroyed by Satan.  If we are a Christian, but we don't practice our faith, then we are in danger of whatever Satan
wants to throw at us because we are not defending ourselves from his snares.  If we are a Christian and we
practice our faith then we will be tested by what we face in the world in order for us to learn the difference between
right and wrong.

    In the Old Testament God explains just what will happen if you don't practice your faith.  This is the reality of our
world today.  This is the reason why people are depressed, afraid and have given up on life.  When you don't
understand what you are fighting against then you are destined to fail.

    Deuteronomy 28: 65-67, "You will find no peace anywhere, no place to call your own; the Lord will overwhelm
you with anxiety, hopelessness, and despair.  Your life will always be in danger.  Day and night you will be filled
with terror, and you will live in constant fear of death.  Your hearts will pound with fear at everything you see.  
Every morning you will wish for evening; every evening you will wish for morning."

    In this passage the Lord refers to Satan's ability to hurt people when they don't understand that they are in a
great game of life that demands that you either activate your faith in the saving power of Jesus or you fail!  Satan
makes you afraid of job loss, high food and gas prices, cancer, crime, and becoming a victim to anything that can
destroy your life.

    When Jesus Christ came He taught His disciples a simple prayer of faith, "The Lord's Prayer'.  Jesus covered
everything that a person would ever come up against in this revolutionary prayer.

    Matthew 6:9b-13, "Our Father in heaven: May your holy name be honored; may your Kingdom come; may your
will be done on earth as it is in heaven.  Give us today the food we need.  Forgive us the wrongs we have done, as
we forgive the wrongs that others have done to us.  Do not bring us to hard testing, but keep us safe from the Evil

    When God is honored in our world then love and service reigns in people's lives.  Praying for God's will is
praying for God to defeat Satan and the evil he perpetrates against people. When we pray for our daily needs
then we are believing and trusting God to give us what we need.  This does not mean He is going to make us rich,
it means that we can count on God to give us just what we need at the time we need it. As Christian's our desire is
for all men to come to the knowledge of God, this is the reason we pray for those who have done us wrong.  When
we pray for protection from Satan we are acknowledging that he tempts people and he is the adversary of all men.

    Cancer and the bad things that happen to people can truly be a scary thing to see, but when we follow Jesus
Christ, He gives us the strength to overcome fear.  When you follow Christ your fear makes you become an
intercessor for those who are going through hard things in the world.

    Fear leads a Christian to take action by fighting Satan through service to those who are in need.  Christians
show unconditional love by helping others who are in need.  If it's sickness then they pray and help with home
care, food or taking care of children.  If it is job loss, devastation as a result of a storm, fire, war or even famine;
Christians give money, support and refuge.

    Romans 12: 9-12, "Love must be completely sincere.  Hate what is evil, hold on to what is good.  Love one
another warmly as Christian brothers, and be eager to show respect for one another.  Work hard and do not be
lazy.  Serve the Lord with a heart full of devotion.  Let your hope keep you joyful, be patient in your troubles, and
pray at all times."

    "I am so afraid" is not in the vocabulary of a Christian who is playing their game of life to win.  Fear is a weapon
of Satan that is debilitating. Satan wants us to give up our faith in God by making us see how impossible life is
when we look at the full picture of evil that is present in the world.  God tells us to hate evil and to be patient.  
Jesus tells us to love one another warmly.  Satan wants us to give up and stop praying for help.  Jesus wants us to
trust Him with our lives and to have joy in the hope that we will be rewarded for everything we have endured by an
eternity of perfection in Heaven.